(in memory of a love lost…)
Did you know when it began?
It was a mystery that always bothered me…
A question that might have led to lots of possibilities.
And a million what ifs that I had to end.
Did you know when it ALL began?
It’s not when I held your hand…
nor when I looked into your eyes.
But, it was that very first time
when I was gazing at your back,
(hoping) not knowing if
you’ll ever turn around and look at me.
Then our eyes met…
And it was as though Spring came and never left
Like an infinite rainbow appeared after a strong typhoon
Like a thousand fireflies dancing merrily under the moon.
Did you know when it ended?
I guess you always knew.
I just had a hard time accepting
Or maybe I was still hoping…
Did you know when it ALL ended?
It’s not when you let go of my hand.
Nor when you started
looking at me like a stranger
from a faraway land.
But it’s that time when you slowly drifted away,
and then suddenly vanished and left.
It was the longest
and most painful farewell
I’ve ever known
even before it was said.
***written on a lonely night of 2014.
Anne-breakable 